Monday, August 3, 2009

Standouts

So I was perusing the interwebs the other day (at work - my interwebs are down again) and I came across this photo by Benjamin Fitts:


and something about it was really striking to me. Just that something, Brides, usually so overdone and so *fabulous* and almost dizzyingly fancy was just being shown in simple red letters on a simple, small building. The technicalities of the photo as well are really striking - it seems a little over exposed, everything seems dull except for these exceptionally red bold letters. In that way, the small house does make a statement about what it is - the letter makes it special, distinguish it from its surroundings in such a definate way.

Since my last "concluding" entry, i've definately continued learning about myself and defining who I am. I've seen that I like to go out to latin dance clubs as opposed to clubs where people just dance, and by dance I mean rub around on eachother. I'm continuing to discover just how deep my sarcasm runs, but also learning that it's lost on some people. I'm learning and thinking about the places my life is going to take me in this upcoming year. I'm terrified, excited, bewildered, and overwhelmed. but on top of that, I think I'm also ready to take it on. I feel like a mix between a capable hunter and a wild animal - i'm ready to take anything on with ferocity, but also planning how I'm going to take it on.

I've figured out that I'm a calm person - I like a quiet night at home with friends more than I like going out to bars. However, and this is what's hard for me to understand, this does not make me a boring person. I used to think that I would love going out at night, that I would want to do it as often as possible. But really? I don't. I feel like that's almost the difference between the bridal store above and say, a couture wedding house in the city. They both stand out, they're both important, but they're just doing it in different ways.

sounds ridiculously simple I know, but when you're one of the only 21 yr olds you know that aren't SUPER PSYCHED about the liquor buying possibilities, it gets harder and harder to see...especially whenever you DO order a drink, people make a big deal out of it. the situation actually reminds me of camp...I never used to curse, but whenever i did curse, people stared wide-eyed. i think it's the attention about it that gets me. but I guess I could see it as if that bridal store in the photo started serving celebrity cliental it might raise a few eyebrows.

moral of this story: still learning and growing. Stay tuned in the upcomming year around december and next summer for updates from AUSTRALIA AND EUROPE!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Photogenic


A lot of people will tell you that they're not photogenic, that they don't look good "on film." Some people really aren't photogenic...others are. Most will tell you that they're not. (for example - i am NOT photogenic. at all. just look at that picture ^)

I feel like a lot of the time, people pass off how hard or easy it is to maintain relationships, or how in love two people are as a couple, the same way they pass off their photogenic-ness. "we're so in love! (said in true chick flick manner)" can, at times, seem almost parallel to "oh no, please, I'm not photogenic." It's like something that's black and white, there's no gray area. There seems to be no effort thrown behind either statement. A chick-flick style love, to me at least, looks like giggles and sunshine and puppy love. It's easy to say "i'm so in love! we're so in love!" when leprechans find their way to YOU looking for pots of gold at the end of the rainbows spouting out of your eyeballs. It's also easy to say "I'm not photogenic" when you've never throught about how a camera works, or always decide to make a face at the camera (also, if you always make a face, do not blame the photographer. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE :-p ). It's an easy thing to say, but I feel like (as with many things) it's more difficult to actually be/do/back up.

I'm really luck to be in a relationship with a guy that doesn't want to pretend it's easy to maintain our relationship. We don't take eachother for granted, and the time that we do get to spend together, well, I guess you could say it's very photogenic. I'm pretty sure we're disgustingly cute. There might be a photo of us on cuteoverload.com. just sayin. However, it would be really easy for someone else to say it's not photogenic at all...we live 2,500 miles away from eachother, to start, and see eachother on average about 5 times a year. but that same person would not be able to say that while the situation is un photogenic, the result is very photogenic.

We think about how our relationship works, and we don't make faces at eachother to mask problems. We know it's not all giggles and sunshine and puppies, but we like to keep giggles and sunshine a part of our relationship. not the puppies though. It was really nice to have him here. We don't pass off how hard we work. All the work, it's not easy. It's un-photogenic. Like a model works hard at maintaining themselves with procedures (i'm talking about diet, exercise, teeth whitening etc...) that might be less than attractive, in the end, what's there is wonderful to behold (most times).

in other news,
this week in the gallery we had an opening for Framework - which is so gorgeous in the space. Photographs by David Weinberg and Sculpture by Bob Emser. The match so weirdly and perfectly and it's gorgeous. Talked to lots of folks at the opening, met "the pirate critic" and he looked at my work! well respected critic told me that i wasn't an amateur. that was cool!

I also spoke french to a variety of french tourists!

looks like I'll be home soon. wherever that is. Sorry if this post is a little babbel-y and incohereant...i'm sad and a little lonely right now (andrew left this morning). ::eats icecream::

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Time Lapse Photography

Showing the passage of time in a photograph can create really interesting effects. It creates a story as opposed to a moment in time. It's almost like a still movie...there's a plot, but it's happening all at once. There's a distinct blur that accompanies this type of photograph, so while there's a plot happening, the viewer has to use their imagination to interpret the blur. It's a lot of fun! This weekend, fourth of july weekend, felt like such a blur to me. Not in the whirlwind sense, but in the loose track of time sense. Time lapsed on me! hehehe...yea.

so before I went out to the lake, I was in a photoshoot with my boss. Me and my boss/coworker Kerri did a bunch of really weird and funky makeup looks and posed around millenium park. sooo much fun. awesome and weird results. no, i don't have any of the photos.

So Thursday after work I went to O'Hare and flew out to Wisconsin to spend the weekend with Sylvia, Tom, Bruce, Jason, Nora, Arlo, and Nora's Israeli counselor Nuphar. It was so much fun - almost like being back at Labelle...but the second day I had no idea what day it was. I read a book (The Red Tent - not my fav, but I see why people like it), took a million photos, didn't check my email (for a whole DAY!), hung out with the kids, had nice talks with everyone, tried to juggle, ate amazing amazing food, made kale chips, and it was so nice. just really wonderful. I'm finally understanding why everyone in my family loves lake houses!

So while there was definately an order of events that happened this weekend, I'll be damned if I know what they were. it was just...wonderful.

in upcomming news, ANDREW COMES THIS SATURDAY!!! Also, I'm doing another shoot with my boss on friday.

I miss you all so much, and I wish I could be back in New Jersey right now. Love to all.

(apologies: there are no time-lapsed photos in this blog post. I preferred the adorable children photos, but the analogy of time lapse. sorry. :-p )

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

A different angle


Frequently, I get stuck in one way of doing something that when I finally get out of the rut, I feel like it's the first breath of air in a long time. I don't realize sometimes that my imagination gets stuck. Most of the time it's called lack of inspiration. Sometimes you need to look at things like an alien to realize how cool they are.

but then random things happen, like your parents come to town. They don't walk past the giant architectural wonders, or over the rivers, the bizarre amount of people taking wedding photos in the same places. They see things in very different ways, they see things as the unusual. Which, if you're around people seeing the unusual enough, you can begin to get inspired by it. I need to go out shooting. this weekend made me want to go out shooting.

so mom and dad were in town and we had a really good time!! we went to the gallery, did an architectural tour, walked around millennium park, went to taste of chicago, saw a movie, went to chicago pride festival, ate at COOBAH (YUMYUMYUM), ate at NIU (YUMYUMYUM), and saw my appartment. all this in about 3 days. I was sooo tired afterward, but it was worth it. I especially enjoyed the architectural tour, our guide was funny and it wasn't too much information at one time.

this week at the gallery i don't have a lot of days i'm working...but i do have some really interesting things i'm doing!
David, the owner of the gallery, has me working on scanning in his old family photos, some dating back to late 1800's early 1900's. COOOOOL. (something else that's cool - this idea where you do fashion photography, but like a victorian photograph)also on thursday 2 of the other women i work with and i are going to do some funky test modeling for this infrared portrait photography idea. i'm so excited about it!!

lots of things comming up!
1. this weekend, i'll be with sylvia, bruce, tricia, the kids, and jason for 4th of july in wisconson! hopefully i'll take lots of pictures
2. after that, on july 11 (which is also the last day of the golden ratio show), andrew comes until the 22!!!!!!! I'm seriously excited to see him.
3. very shortly after that, on the 25, Jasmine is coming for a few days! hopefully she'll keep me from being too sad.
4. then i'm done! this summer went so quickly already!

what's up with you guys?

Monday, June 22, 2009

On capturing the unusual


Since photography is about the moment, often what one chooses to photograph is that which is unknown to them. While this brings about a lot of controversy in terms of isolating the "other," it can also be the most interesting form of photography to look at and take. For examples, see Diane Arbus' work, which i think i've mentioned previously...getting hard to remember...

so lots of things have happened recently...been cooking a lot, and adventurous enough to buy a small bottle of sesame oil! it is making me make yummy things. It's one of those ingrediants that i'm kind of intimidated by, but i decided to really give it a shot. so far, the results have been delicious...like a peanut chicken i made last night, and the sauteed spinich i made with it.

but one of the big things that happened....my friend that i met in france, Jacquline, came for a visit! (she lives about an hour away). While we were walking to get groceries downtown, we saw a huge crowd outside a big movie theater. apparently, it was the premier of Johnny Depp/Christian Bale's new movie!!!! we got to see both of them so close up. So close that if i had reached a little bit i could have kissed johnny depp as he passed. no kidding. check out the photo we got!


the photo you see at the top of the blog is my new stuffed animal!!! I couldn't resist...mustache bunny was so cute and huggable and soft. also, just completely bizarre.

on saturday, work was pretty slow and for the first time in weeks it was warm and sunny out! (all you east-coasters look forward to a day or two of sun!) My friend matt stopped by the gallery ont the way to the beach, and ended up convincing my boss (it wasn't hard. she more convinced me) to let me leave early and head off to the beach! We watched all the human drama going around and walked in the water a bit. After that we walked around in a few stores, tourist watching/shopping for matt. that was the day i adopted my lil' freak of nature (mustache bunny), and also a sketch pad and some drawing markers.

Sunday I was alone most of the day, and decided to check out "time out chicago," a website/paper that lists events in the city. they even have a whole section dedicated to free events! As it turned out, last night was the first night of summer dance - a free dance lesson in grant park followed by about 2 hours of live music to dance to! this week it was swing dancing, so i took my sketch pad out to practice some gesture drawings. Apparently, as a photographer not many people will bother you when shooting, but when drawing people feel the freedom to just come up and talk to you, make comments on your sketches, start conversations. it's almost like having a dog! people come and pet you. I got asked to dance twice, got given a packet with quotes from the old testiment, cheered on by the grannies i was sitting with, flirted with by a very hairy tango instructor, and complimented (on gesture drawings?? they were super sketchy quick draws). it was kinda funny...people feel freer to observe you if you're observing them...but not really when that thing is a camera. it was really funny.

other things i'm looking forward to this week...apparently, wholefoods sponsors free yoga classes on their roof garden followed by a discussion about nutrition on wednesday nights. i think i'll go :-)

even though i don't know as many people in the city this summer, i'm really making an effort to go out and explore the moment i'm in. there are so many things, unusual, unexpected, or even the norm, that i'm getting to see!

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Appreciating a photograph



Many people refuse to believe that a photograph is art. The fact that the comparative time it takes to make a photograph (anywhere from an hour+ to 1/1000 of a second) to a painting or a drawing (hours, days, months, years) makes people think that there's nothing to it. Also the accessibility of cameras "makes everyone an artist." This, to me, sounds like a really dangerous notion. while i believe it's important that anyone who feels a call to art explore that call, to believe that one is an artist just because they own an artistic utensil is a little ridiculous. I own several pencils, but i would never assume i can draw like Michelangelo, you know?

Like I've said many times before in the blog, it's the moment you choose to press the shutter - the decision of what's in the frame, the instant, or instants, captured. What you choose that you want to remember...photographing a happy moment as opposed to a sad one, taking a photograph of the souffle that made it as opposed to the 3 failures that preceded it.

France, like many told me it would and liked i expected, is starting to fade out the bad memories. I remember being upset, but i'm now thinking only about the people i met and liked, Marie-Claire, the (seeming) several million patisseries and boulangeries that i ate in, my trip to italy...it's nice. It seems that my brain is choosing the moments to take pictures of for me. it's nice. less things i have to think about.

one thing i would like to have a photograph: when i succeeded in unclogging my toilet with dish soap and almost boiling water. twice. Another thing i would have liked to photograph is the dinner i made tonight: tofu with peanut sauce, neatly cut cucumber and carrots, sprouts, cabbage leaves, and rice with rice vinager. my friend matt came over and shared it with me.

gallery world is still amazing. check out the website i'm helping to maintain! www.davidweinberggallery.com

(shot at the top of the post is from a shoot i did last friday!)

in other random news - i participated in my first gallery opening on friday. I think i poured over 15 bottles of wine in the course of like...3 hours. whoopie! it was really fun. I think for this show that we're doing, "Golden Ratio," my fav artist up is Carter Hodgkin. She simulates particle explosions and creates art out of them. Art and math in happy union!

if you guys do check out the sites and have any questions (even if it's: why would anyone make something like this?) please please please leave them in the comments section. Art is so much more enjoyable when you know about it!

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Technology


Photography is all about technology. From its inception in the industrial revolution, the development of photography has been about refining the camera and the film's technology. All this refining has led to sharper, more exact images, faster film (ability to shrink shutter speed from minutes to 100's of a second), digital cameras, photoshop and other types of digital post-processing...the list goes on and on.

in case you didn't know yet, my internet is finally set up. yay technology!

not having the internet has made me feel so out of touch with the city - now i can go online and search for cultural events happening, stay up-to-date with my friends, make plans...all this was possible without internet of course, through phone calls and newspapers, but newspapers can get out of date, people don't always pick up the phone, time differences, etc. The internet is a really important tool (and time waster extrodinare!) for me, and I'm glad to happen. Like taking photos in film and digital...it's like comparing apples to oranges. they're both fruit, but very different types.

hopefully this means that I won't be hit on by the argo tea guy anymore ;-)

more updates when I have some :-p

Friday, May 29, 2009

workflow


so. back at the argo tea. it appears that the internet didn't turn on, and doesn't intend to. i've been told to buy a month to month plan by my sublessor, and that she'll refund the rent and lower the month-to-month cost. she fricken better put that in writing.

you know, this is the second time this year that i've been somewhat promised internet service (or at least asked if it was an important aspect in a homestay) and it hasn't been there. I don't like this pattern at all.

the guy who made me my deeeeeeeelicious mojitea (mint tea with bubbles and delicousness!) is trying to flirt with me by trying to involve me in a conversation about video games and anime. My not really likeing anime, and deprivation of video games isn't helping is case.

(funnily, i just wrote that and he came, sat down, and started to chat me up for like....20 min. then he blamed his forwardness on espresso.)

anyway..................workflow!
I really like the gallery where i've been working. it's a pretty small community - maybe 10 people total including myself, and not everyone is there everyday. The athmosphere is really relaxed and everyone acts like they're part of a family. I'm learning the culture fast, and I really like it. Everyone is pretty young too, so that helps on a relation level (and they all deeply sympathize with my internet issues). Things generall jump from one thing to another, getting small bits of everything done. Next week we're taking down the show that's up right now (richard hunt - sculpture/old man in his 70's extrodinare) and exchanging it for one that looks AWESOME called "Golden Ratio." I'm super psyched. So far i've gone through submissions from random artists, sent out rejection letters, updated databases, wrapped some peices for shipment, participated in meetings, and a whooooole bunch of other stuff. but i have a lot to learn about the artists so that i can really answer questions when people come and look around the gallery.

So far I havn't seen many people around that i know...Sherrick, the scholar from beloit (my year) is here which is nice and we're hanging out. DJ (another scholar) just arrived today, but won't be around until the weekend. Emily (my roommate) gets in on sunday, and then Timila (another scholar) won't get in for some time yet i think. My friend Saika is visiting this weekend, and things are starting to get rolling. we even had some sunshine today!

regardless of the internet situation, things are finallllly starting to move along. now hopefully this awkward barista won't ask for my number.

love to all, shabbat shalom!

Monday, May 25, 2009

Memory


Photos are big. really really big. usually. the ones i take are generally on the larger side. the larger they are, the more detail they tend to include. unfortunately, each one therefore takes up a lot of memory (if they happen to be digital).

so I'm back in chicago. I arrived to find the appartment kind of messy, the futon broken (though i think it may still be usable as a bed?) and the internet not functioning (though recent communications say that it WILL START TOMORROW!). while all this made me panic-y and upset yesterday, today i'm feeling better about it. the building is GREAT, very nice with a super gym on the 3rd floor. i can see the HUMOUNGOUS AND AWESOME supermarket from my window, and we live downwind from a chocolate plant (which, i recently discovered, DOES SELL CHOCOLATE).

the flight over was very easy, regardless of travelocity's attempt to make everything go wrong, and i got the the appartment quickly and easily. I sat between step-siblings in the exit row. great for my legs, but one of the siblings was wearing a caluculator watch, was in his 40's, and hadn't flown in something like 30 some-odd years (except for the flight he took to the east coast a few days previous) and kept fidgiting trying to look out the window. at the beginning of the flight i offered both of them gum, which i then placed in the pocket in the seat in front of me, only to have him halfway through the flight lunge forward and grope around for it before turning to ask "oh, was that gum yours?"

now that i'm back in chicago, all i can think about it last years experience. the bus stop i stood at, the museum, my old building (which i have to admit, at least at this point, i liked living in more. while this place i'm staying in now is more decorated and furnished, i definately like the location of the old building more.)

this also makes me think about the home in NJ. I probably slept in it, ate in it, and showered in it for the last time. this is weird. I wonder how i'll feel at the end of the summer, when i'll still probably be in the area a fair bit, but not living there. will i even find a reason to ever go by my house? what will i do with my keys? It was a big part of my life. the memories there take up a huge part of my life. the memories in chicago are also pretty large. france too. where am i gonna store this all? can i buy a harddrive for my brain? should i invent the Harry Potter "pensive" bowl to "collect my thoughts"?

enough's enough. catch ya on the flip side

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

While I don't regret...

...learning french, going to italy, meeting Marie-Claire, seeing family...

a lot of the time I really wish I had gone somewhere different. Like Australia or New Zealand. When else am I going to get the time to go? And why didn't I think of it earlier? People who go there are looking for different things than people who study in Europe...why didn't i think of it?

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Lost People


"We try to grab pieces of our lives as they speed past us. Photographs freeze those pieces and help us remember how we were. We don't know these lost people but if you look around, you'll find someone just like them." - Gene McSweeney

some of you guys may recognize the above quote as the one that's always on the right hand side of my blog, right next to my photo. When i made this blog, i was searching for a quote that resonated with me to put in that spot, which is marked "about me." I didn't know exactly why i thought this quote represented some facet of my personality, but i chose it originally because it had to do with photography, grabbing snippets from all around, and then reflecting on them a little bit. I liked the message it gave about photography.

this entry is about reflecting on how i've changed. Pulling over if you will. I'm hitchhiking and picking myself up at the same time.

At the beginning of last year, I was as low as i had ever been. The second big friendship trauma of my life had taken place, and I felt very alone. I had little to no self-esteem left, and I wasn't sure who to depend on. thankfully, some very good friends picked me up, put me in the oven (of love), took me out when i was good and baked, and let me cool for a while until i hardened back up with a soft interior. I was a cookie. but a good cookie. I would prefer that to roadkill personally.

after i got my feet back on the ground, it was time to ship off to chicago, where, while it was difficult at the beginning, i now remember with much fondness. I started to gain my confidence back, I became super comfortable with public transportation, and I started dancing again. I also got my second and third real photo jobs, which is always really exciting. working for Gary was also a dream.

then i came back, and it was time to go to france.

I've written a lot about finding my location, not loosing control, looking at the same things from a different angle, and nerves.

i feel a little bit reborn.

being a cookie was good, but at the same time, i needed a fresh start. as much as i hated it in the beginning, i needed to stick myself into an unfamiliar place, and figure it out again. Baby steps was good, learning to talk was good, but what i needed was to remember who i was, to recreate myself. to let myself learn the same things again with the knowledge that it's possible to fall apart. but what i gained was the knowledge that i can rebuild myself again. even if it makes me miserable, i can deal, i can get through, i can succeed, and i can even make friends. i can make friends that i think will last. and i can be confident in that. and confidence is something i've been missing for a little while.

I also learned a language. In fact, i learned two. I learned how to speak french, and I learned to speak myself. what do i need right now to get over this. what do i need to realize, what do i need to think about.

sure that may sound a little selfish to only be thinking about myself. but when you're re-learning almost everything you've ever learned about yourself, learning how to listen to that and follow through is a good thing to know how to do.

so i remember how i was before my friendship traumas. and i remember how i was in every transitional phase since then. but i think i'm officially done being in transitional phases. i'm still going to change obviously, but i think i've healed the old wounds. i can wake up in the morning, do every sort of boring and non-boring activity it takes to be a student, develop a routine, do it, and have that be enough. i can do that.

about continuing this journal...i have NO idea. i'm honestly not that big of a writer. i think that maybe when dane and i were young she used so many words that i learned how to express them in other ways, dance and art (and screaming, occassionally). so i'm not sure if i'll ever feel compelled to write in this again. but if i am, if i've got something to put out there, i most certainly will. so feel free to check back every now and again.

this is liora, signing off.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

PAINTINGS I MADE THIS SEMESTER

here is an image of alll the paintings i did this semester minus a few.

click on the image to see "alll" of them. the blog cuts a few out.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Film Speed, or ISO


When taking pictures, digital or film, one has to think about ISO (aka: ASA or Film Speed). The ISO refers to how sensitive the film (or pretend film) is to light. And since photography is all about capturing light, logic says that the more sensitive your film is (aka: the higher your ISO), the more light is captured in your photographs.

example:
for shooting in bright sunny outdoor light, one would use an ISO of about 100-200, not very sensitive. there's already a lot of light!
however, if you want to shoot, for example, a skyline at night, or a portrait with not a lot of light, one might use an ISO of anywhere from 500-3200. depending on quality of the camera and amount of light.
if you decide to shoot at ISO 700 on a bright summer day,typically, you're not going to get anything at all because your film is too sensitive. it just will bleach out. unless you're magical.

some days in aix i feel like my ISO is just changing all over the place. In some classes i'm well exposed some might say, balanced, well composed. In others, I'm just not there at all. Due to constant criticism with the notes "there are still a lot of errors" on all of my papers (regardless of how much i've improved the paper and how little errors actually remain, the critique is constant) in Expression Oral et Ecrit, I have simply ceased to care. I'm gonna study hard for the final, but why even bother trying to edit a photograph that simply isn't well exposed to begin with? that's what i feel like sometimes. Whereas, another situation, art class. I'm not the best, but the critique isn't "your eyes are always too big." it's, maybe try this way. how about another go?

While I'm ready to come home in a BIG way, i'm also really nervous. I'm heading back into an environment that i know is realllly stressfull (and with good reason...if you're gonna stress, this is stuff to stress about) after coming out of a situation that's really stressful, and then heading back to school in the US (which can be also seen as stressful). I'm not sure that i'm equiped to make all of these changes and keep my sanity. One of the girls here tells me that i may just need to take some "me" time. While that may be true, i'm not sure what it'll do. I'm not sure what's going on at home...all i know is that things are crazy. very very crazy. again, with good reason. what is going to be expected of me? pack up everything i know...but also be a responsible family member, girlfriend, friend, earn money (since i'll definately need it to buy books next semester), and take me time to still be sane. I don't really know what's going on any more. this is crazy. constantly switching back and forth from one situation to another. Not like i'm the only one, but still.

see you all in 14 days.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Nerves



Like when riding a horse, or dealing with nearly any situation, it is normally better to hide how scared you actually are during the situation, and, if appropriate, take control with confidence. At least, this is how i usually tend to act when i'm in a photoshoot with someone. It's very important, especially if the person is not used to being photographed, to help them, guide them, talk to them, and work with them through the shoot. if you're nervous and they know it, they get nervous, then the shot is ruined (usually) etc etc etc...you get the picture (HAHAHAPUN).

today i have a photoshoot with my dance professor Elodie. She is way cool...very very nice, obsessed with rachel brice (like me), and has dreadlocks down to her BUTT. I'm really looking forward to shooting her, but at the same time i'm very extreemely nervous. what happens if i choke on my french? what happens if i don't live up to my own expectations? what if the setting i found doesn't work out? what if, as a result of this shoot, she hates me forever? or what if it turns into a great friendship after this? what if????

edits as of Dec 3: PHOTOSHOOT WENT AMAZING. 200+ FRAMES IN AN HOUR. I DID NOT EVEN KNOW WHAT WAS HAPPENING!! (you can see all the shots i saved/preliminary edits at this link: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2024544&l=f256e&id=35502054 )

sometimes i think nerves help me get the better shot. if i manage to deal with them and put them aside. for all those that know the story, sometimes i get into the "aleitheometer trance" and when i can, good photos. when i can't...i rely on the mediocraty of what i know. not on what i can do.

in other news, i got my first A the other day (woohoo!) and one of my henna drawings was chosen to be the motif for the invitation to the school's gallery and "soiree des jeunes talents" (evening of young talents)party. exciting!

this past weekend i went to paris and stayed with pierre, sylvie, and the girls. everything went well, and i had a good time, but it's also a little awkward. I know i really like the girls, but this is the first time i've ever been able to talk to them! and since vanessa is studying all the time, and alexandra mumbles a bit (hard for me to understand her) it just made it a little...more awkward. I found myself relying too much on what i knew instead of going with the flow. little strained. hope that'll change. We had dinner at Annette's place on saturday night with everyone. Stani told me that i grew up. i giggled, but maybe it's true.

this upcomming weekend i have plans with the welsley girls! good times await.

i can't wait to come home. I am very ready.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

And in addition...


There are many digital photo editing programs out there, one of the most famous of which is Adobe PhotoShop. In photoshop, it is possible to cut things out of other images and put them together in one image, creating something that was never actually there to begin with. for example, in the picture above, i added the butterfly in from a photo i took a few years ago in montreal.

well, i feel a little as if that's happened.

when my parents were here, we met a bunch of girls from Wellsley, Amherst, and Vassar. We decided to get together for dinner one night and after that my life has improved greatly. we're all friends, and i finally feel actually accepted, not forced accepted, into a group of people here. it's never been cooler in aix (temperture wise also). very much cut and pasted into my life, but we mesh. it's neat. and fun. a lot funner.

in addition, i'll be shooting my dance teacher soon (as in photography) and THAT is really cool. woman has got awesome hair, and this is probably the closest i'll ever get to shooting the esteemed rachel brice. also, my teacher says i've been doing really well.

ALSO i'm not going to fail grammer like i thought i might be.

so life is good in aix. but i'm ready to come home. 27 days and counting.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Chemistry


Photography has a strong base in chemistry. When it was first developed way back when in the 1800's, it was more about the science behind the image than the art behind the image.

To develop negatives, and then individual images, one uses three chemicals that i know only by photography names (not by actual chemical names, unfortunately). They are, in order of usage:
developer, stop, and fix

they must be with the negatives/photo paper in the correct quantities and for the correct amount of time. To fail to do this will result in really destroyed images, or happy accidents. More commonly than not however, the former. So it's important to pay attention to what you put into your light-tight film canister, or baths for print making.

My parents came to visit me on thursday! I was so excited to see them. First we went out to lunch, then I had class, then I met them for dinner. I wanted to take them to this japanese-korean place i liked, but it was full up, so instead we went to this great tapas restaurant that was completely bustling with activity. Yummy sangria (or beer, in dad's case) and tapas all around. Neat fact: there is a drink at this restaurant that has something to do with coffee and alcohol in a shot class, on fire, that you drink with a straw. while it is on fire. weiiird.

Friday morning I went to class, and then the three of us met up and went to "cathedral des images," which is this old stone quarry which now houses these amazing light shows set to musique. The subject of the one we went to was van gogh's paintings. it was incredable. Afterward, we went up to the local castel on a moutain with an adjoining medeival village. views a plenty. Then we took the hour drive back to Aix, where my parents met my host mother, and then out to dinner at the Korean-japanese place. There we met these girls from vassar and welsey who i exchanged numbers with, and then went back to their hotel room, then back to my house. We planned to go to avignon in the morning.

unfortunately, I hadn't watched what i was eating close enough or something, because at about 5:00AM i woke up with some really horrible poison sickness. needless to say, avingon was out of the question, and i spent 90% of the day in and out of sleep in bed, hardly eating. good times abound, n'est pas?

sunday morning i woke up feeling a lot better, and we decided to do the avignon trip. It was good, but after lunch i wasn't feeling too hot, so instead of walking we took a little train around. yes, we saw the pont d'avignon where one dances where one dances. overall it was a good day, finished off by italian food on the cours mirabeau, the big main street in aix. i had a whole bowl of pasta without feeling too ill. success! but unfortunately i tasted too much of my parent's deserts. big mistake there.

monday morning i was supposed to leave for paris with my parents and spend time there with family (tuesday was armistance day and no one had school, so i was just taking monday off). Unfortunately, i wasn't feeling too hot and decided to stay in Aix, where i sat on my bum for two days. feeling much better now!

so that's that. I gotta watch what i put in my mouth a little closer i guess. the figurative film of our weekend together was somewhat messed up by some stupid food. ah well.

in other news, i emailed Gary, boss from the summer, on what chicago was like right now. he says the museum's doing great and that they're looking to house the obama campaign materials! very exciting. He also recommended some good ice cream places in Paris. :-)

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Entry NOT about photography....

SO. VACATION UPDATES ARE HERE.

Ive decided to skip the photography relation in these next few entries because i just want to give you guys just basically how everything went everywhere, and a few notes about life the first days back. maybe i'll throw in some photography relations. maybe.

so.

VENICE:
Friday: so my train/bus schedule to get to venice went as follows-> leave saturday morning on a bus to Marseille, train from marseille to nice, nice to milan, milan to venice. little did a realize that instead of my bus being at 6:30 in the morning, it was in fact, my train from marseille that left at that ungodly hour. thanks to a little help from Marie-Claire, all went well. though i was hacking and wheezing and sniffling my way through planning how i was going to get to the station.
Saturday:
(travel day 1) hopped on the bus to marseille at 5:45 AM and listened to the bus driver to the sounds of already drunk highschoolers on the back of the bus, who were seranading us along with the radio the song "eye of the tiger." what a wake up! made my train (just) and slept most of the way to nice. on the train from nice to milan, i sat in a group of four with a french woman and her two kids. they were really nice, and one of the kids, the girl, was in a language centered high school. trying to copy what she had seen from american TV shows, every five seconds was punctuated with a bored "ohmyGOD." pretty funny.
At one point on that train, an italian couple sat down in the group of four across the aisle from us, facing an australian couple. the older italian couple spoke no other language, the same for the middle age australians. and so, i got to be translator with the french woman. the italian couple spoke to her in italian, who translated to me in french, who translated for the australians in english. it was a lot of fun, and after it, i talked a lot with the french family. I told my FIRST JOKE IN FRENCH! it was awesome.
On the train from milan to venice, i sat with two vietnamese women, who i swear looked like they were my age, when in fact they were both at least 10 years my senior. we talked about the differences between asiatic cultures and european ones, and a little bit about vietnamese sentaments about the vietnam (or as they call it: the american) war. she said they're mostly over it, and that it's more our guilt trip now. i don't know how to feel about that honestly. i'm glad it's still a guilt trip for us. keeps us in check to a certain point i feel.
Arrived in venice around 7:00 and gasped outloud. it was everything i could have never imagined, yet thought about my entire life. I spent a total 10 minutes there walking to the two buses i would have to take to get to my hostel.
Got to my hostel, (camping d'alba oro or something), checked in, and wrote a brief note to you guys letting you know id gotten in. went to my cabin, went to bed.
Sunday:
(venice 1) I woke up with the morning light, as i was on a very uncomfotable top bunk in a cold cabin (the heater didn't do much for me when i was next to a tiny, air leaking window). Spoke with my roommate for a while, her name was carolyn, and she was columbian, just finished with a bus tour. She told me that two of her friends from the bus tour were actually staying at the same hostel as us, and invited me to go explore the city with them. I agreed, and spent an amazing day just wandering around the city with them. That night her two friends left, which was sad, but a huge busload of australians, new zealanders (kiwis), brits, and south africans roled in. there was a big party that night, and i made lots of friends. I was referred to as "love" for the first time in my life. "Hey love, what's your name?" good times had all around.

Monday:
(venice 2) The second day my roommate left and it was just me in the cabin. I walked around venice by myself, just taking pictures. Walked from one end to the other. good day, but not as good as the previous. that night hung out more with the aussies, though i had completely NO voice whatsoever (the cold i was getting over and previous nights party had kinda taken care of that). After most had gone to bed, one of my new friends and i stayed up a little later and watched "The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou" on my laptop. good times, once again.

Tuesday:
(travel day 2) On tuesday i said goodbye to the aussies and left for florence. it was a rainy voyage and arrival, but it was soooo good to see jasmine waiting for me at the train station. We hugged (not air kissed!) and she helped me find my hostel, just about a 10, 15 minute walk from the station. It was the same company, but a super nice hostel. i was staying in a mixed room (boys and girls) of 8 people. when i arrived, the people staying with me were mostly girls from the US traveling for their week break, and a seargent from the UK. The girls were really...uh...vapid so i tried not to spend much time with them. Instead, i talked to the seargent and mary and jasmine that first day. since it was raining, i tried not to go outside too much. ate my umpteenth pasta dinner (a la arrabiata, for you eddie izzard fans) and went to bed. (this night, punctuated by the least amount of sniffling and coughing yet!)
Wednesday:
(florence 1) On wednesday i met mary and jasmine at the train station in the morning, and then they showed me around some of the markets in florence, and we ate lunch at this delicious (and cheap!) sandwhich place. it was so nice to see them. SO nice. When they went to class, i continued walking around for a little bit before meeting some of my roommates at the Uffizzi gallery, where we say birth of venice and spring by botecelli, as well as some other gorgeous artworks. Later on, when i ate dinner, i sat down with this lovely red headed fellow, Owain. Recently graduated, he was "woofing," or traveling from organic farm to organic farm, working in exchange for food and housing. He was taking a break and meeting his girlfriend in a few days. We had a great conversation that branched all over traveling, shakespeare, farming, chestnuts, and other things. We finished the night by watching some def poetry jam and reading some ee cummings before agreeing to meet up to climb the duomo the following day.
Thursday:
(florence 2) Thursday i woke up a little earlier and went to see "David" and some pretty paintings at the Academia. David was...amazing. I couldnt even imagine the detail that was in his hands. I blinkedm, but i could have sworn i saw him breath. Afterward, i met mary and jasmine a little bit later at their school (which is in this amazing old building thing) and ate lunch together. Afterward, I met up with Owain and we climbed the 423 steps to get to the top of the duomo. it was...tiring, and a little scary climbing up all these little mediaval steps, but amazing once we got to the top. Because the weather had been kinda crazy, when you looked off of one half of the duomo it was dark and stormy, but the other side was bright and sunny. cool. Afterwards, because he knew the city, owain showed me a delicious and cheap place to get gelato, and then we went back to the hostel where a note from mary was waiting for me on my bed (she's so shady) telling me that a bunch of folks were meeting up at the duomo later to go out to a bar where a band was playing. My old roommates had left at this point and had been replaced by Kirsty, an australian woman who was at the end of her trip, Mr. Argentina, who was, as you can guess, argentinian, Martin, a really sweet german guy who had just left a couple in their 60's he had been staying with for a while, and Adrian, a guy from australia somewhere in between the end and the middle of his trip around europe. Owain, Martin, Adrian, and I decided to head out to dinner together, and afterward head out to meet mary and jasmine and folks. the night that followed was a lot of fun, even though we were a little concerned about exactly how much martin had drunk. it was a great time though. Said goodbye to Owain, who was moving into a hotel for a few days with his girlfriend.

Friday:
(florence 3) what did i do on friday...i honestly don't really remember. I woke up late, walked around a bit, met up with mary and jasmine. That night, we went to a halloween party at a bar. It was a good time. Jasmine got "mama mia"ed. that was seriously entertaining.
Saturday:
(travel 3) I left florence with a sad goodbye to mary and jasmine at around 11 in the morning. Unfortunately, due to two late trains and a missed bus back to aix-en-provence, i only got back home around 2 in the morning. I slept until 12:00 on sunday...the longest i've slept since.

all in all the vacation was AMAZING. I had such a good time. Unfortuantely, now i think i realize exactly how lonely i feel here. I was so easy to connect to the people i met on my trip, and of course to actually see some friends...but now that i'm back in aix, i have a full view of what life could be like NOT here. and that's both a blessing and a curse. I think it might have been better if i skipped study abroad, and just backpacked for a few months. would have been a better experience i'm sure based off of this little one i had for a week.

Lili, the program head here, had us all write evaluations of the program before we left. Unfortunately, due to my condition of stress and annoyance, i was probably a little more honest than i wanted to be. she, in turn, now wants to talk to me about it. god...i really hate this woman. the only reason she wants to talk to me is to play god and be intimidating. trust me on this one.

that's all the updates for now...see you guys sooooon! I'll be back in town on dec. 22nd.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

IM IN FLORENCE!!!

Im in florence now, checked into my hostel, found mary and jasmine, and i'm chillin with jas while mary's in her last class. it's raining. poo on that.

i started speaking with a strange australian-ish accent because a) my voice is weird in an after-throat-sick kinda way and b) because i havn't been speaking that much english, and when i started speaking a lot of it it was only around australians. who were, by the way, awesome. i had the best time ever in venice.

all updates will come after i get back to aix, in two very long entries...so look for them!

love to all

ps: i think venice photos are gonna be good!

Saturday, October 25, 2008

IM IN VENICE

...and none of you are on skype....

for like the 5 seconds i saw of it before getting onto the bus to go to the hostel, venice is AWESOME. i cant wait to start taking pictures!!!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Location 2


So we've already talked a lot about location, seeing as i've kinda been all over the place, and to talk about location when one is traveling is kinda...well, ever present. well, the time has come to yet again change location.

I (now) find that changing ones physical location is key in seeing things differently. Like, I can look at a square in the states, and i can look at a square in europe, and see them very differently based on their location. or, i can just see a square.

i find that differentiating between seeing different squares and seeing the same one is very important. It's important to recognize that in this world everything affects everything else, so it may indeed be the same square i'm looking at. yay! unity!

or, they can be two different squares. yay american upbringing full of uniqueness!

in any case, next week i'll be in Italy, and i probably won't update. I'm very excited...I get to see mary and jasmine and venice and florence! yay venice! i hope my hostel is good. I'll be taking lots and lots and lots of photos.

speaking of photos (and I always seem to be) this week my photo class went really well. The girls relaxed and everyone was just having a good time being artsy-fartsy and looking at things like composition. i managed to teach! it was fun.

also, i entered a contest. my entry, as well as all the others, can be found here: http://zemotion.deviantart.com/journal/20980761/
(just scroll down a little...mine is the one from the same shoot as the photo this week...bright red shoes!) i hope i win.

miss you all, hope everyone is healthier than me at the moment (i hate colds).

ps: i cut my hair
pps: it's cute